Always on my mind...

Although it has been 2 1/2 years since my mom passed away from ovarian cancer, I don't think it will ever seem real.  Maybe that is good because it means that the memories of her are still so close to my heart.  I don't know why, but what I do know is that when the thought of her death hits me, it still takes my breath away.  I don't know if it was the dream of being back in high school, the recent time with that side of my family or the opportunity to have so many great talks with my mother-in-law this week, but this morning my mom was there, the breath was taken once again and the tears began to flow.  I am so thankful for her in my life-the friendship we had and the example she was.  I only remember once being "embarrassed" and that was short lived because she was chaperoning a dance-but once the dance started it was cool.  She was always invited to be at my dances, my games and my events-to cheer me on.  I never lied to her, I always told on myself, because despite the poor choice that I may have made at the time, she still always looked upon me with open arms and love.  She was an amazing person and had an amazing testimony-even now while she is gone, her faith and character are high in many people's eyes.  So when I think of her I wonder why God chose to take her at such a young age-weren't there worse moms He could have taken out of this world?  I know this is a selfish thought and she would have reminded me that she was secure in her salvation-she had a hope and she is with Him now, by choosing her He allowed the other mom another chance to make a change.  It's amazing the things that are happening in our family now-and I believe it all started long ago because of her.  I hope that I have the same relationship with my children and the same impact that she did someday. 

Check out her story under her blog listed above (Connie's journey).  I bet she will touch your life as she did so many others!